Monday, November 02, 2009
Just read a friend's blog. After reading, I feel proud of him, cos I realised that he has changed a lot over this year, for the better.
Frankly speaking, I didn't have a very good impression of him as a person in the past, cos he's always so slack and irresponsible. I rmb there's a point of time when he almost gave up on himself cos of a setback. Now, he's full of aspirations; he has a target in life and he works hard for it. He has also become a more sensible person. I'm really glad that he has managed to find meaning in his life.
On contrary, I'm changing for the worse. Why is life getting so tough? In the past, I'd nvr say give up no matter what, but now, I really wanna let go and surrender to save myself from anymore pain. (yes, the process is painful.) Perhaps I've turned into a coward. I'm no longer optimistic and strong-headed. I run away from difficulties. I have no aim, no confidence... I just let nature take its course, cos im scared of making mistakes again. Sighs.
Why does life seem so tough that it's beyond my control? So tough that I alrdy have no idea what I should do. ):
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Till we meet again..
